Well, as you can probably guess by my widget on the side, I fell off the wagon starting last Thursday and am really struggling to get back on. The little voice inside my head is currently telling me to go down to the soda shop and get some ice cream. I find it really hard to ignore this little voice, I just wish it would stop.
I have my mid-cycle scan tomorrow morning to check how my follicles are growing. I’m a little worried. My fertility monitor hasn’t even given me a high reading which is totally abnormal. I’m really just nervous about everything. I’ve finally stopped dragging my feet about doing an IUI and I’m afraid this month will be cancelled due to something. I’m really trying to stay positive and not think about the negative, but those that have been through this know that you go through all of the what ifs on a daily basis. Oh yeah, after the doctor’s appointment, I get to go to Jury Duty, fantastic.
I’ve been to two acupuncture sessions in the last week and have a third one today. I’m really enjoying them and I hope my body is getting in line and balanced or whatever happens during the session. It’s a community acupuncture place which is pretty interesting. There are four chairs per room and the acupuncturist leans you back, sticks the pins in and then leaves you for an hour with some really relaxing music. Along with the music, there is usually some big guy snoring away. I hope that’s not me one of these days (I also hope I’m not referred to as a big guy ever).
A coworker, the only other infertile that I know personally going through infertility treatments is having her IUI with the same doctor tomorrow a few hours after my scan. I’m super stoked for her. She is the one who referred me to my RE. She’s been diagnosed with PCOS and has a high stress job. I hope this works out for both of us.
I’m going to finish this post later. I’m going to take a walk to see if I can quiet down the ice cream voice in my head. Stay tuned…..
1 hour later: Well, I made it! I did a quick EFT session, took a 30 minute walk and got through my craving. I feel victorious. I only have a few more hours left of work to get through, then acupuncture, then home to the hubs and the delicious Paleo Shepherd’s Pie that I made last night. The recipe is from Elana’s Pantry. It has bacon (Applegate uncured), enough said. I just need to figure out how to make the Cauliflower mash a little thicker.
I think I’m going to try this EFT stuff on my smoking voice. It really worked today and gave me the confidence I needed to get through it. If you haven’t tried it or heard of it, check out some videos on youtube.